I apologize in advance, but I’m not my usual jubilant self. I’m in a rather somber mood.
If you haven’t heard — which, in this day and age, it’s hard not to hear about any major celebrity death — Chester Bennington, of the rock band, Linkin Park, died by suicide on Thursday.
When I was in middle school, I was on the softball team with one of my best friends, Brittany. I remember one time, on a bus driving to an away game, she let me listen to this CD she was playing on her CD player (yeah, we had these before iPods were a thing), and it was Hybrid Theory. I. fell. in. love. I went to the store not too long after that and bought my own copy, and I played it over and over and over until all the words were ingrained in my brain. And then I bought Reanimation and Meteora as soon as they came out. I was a girl obsessed — I bought their DVDs, posters, joined LP Underground, drew fanart, wrote fanfics, and frequented a LP fan forum. They were my first favorite band (besides Backstreet Boys, obvs).
When we were seniors in high school (Aug 2007), Brittany and I, along with our other bff Sierra, road-tripped a couple hours away to go to Projekt Revolution. We saw Linkin Park, My Chemical Romance, Taking Back Sunday, HIM, Placebo, Mindless Self Indulgence, Saosin, plus a few more. We were SO excited to see one of our favorite bands! I got to see them a second time, six months later, with my other best friend Kali. And then when Projekt Revolution came back the next year (2008), I went again, where Linkin Park played with Chris Cornell (RIP), The Bravery, Atreyu, 10 Years, Hawthorne Heights, and others. I distinctly have memories from each concert that I will carry with me until the end.
Linkin Park was a vital part of my growing up, and this death has chipped away part of my childhood. It makes my heart hurt to think Chester — or that anyone who had suffered or suffers from depression — had no escape from his inner turmoil and chose the path of suicide. It hurts your family, it hurts your friends and your loved ones. I know life is hard; honestly it sucks most of the time, and it’s full of obstacles that seem impossible to cross, but suicide is NOT the answer.
If you are suffering from depression, please know you are NOT ALONE.
If you need someone to talk to, there are people who will listen! I will listen. If I can be honest with you, I had thought about suicide a handful of times in my teenage years (to this day, I still blame it on the birth control I was on, but I digress). You are not crazy, and you are not lonely, no matter how alone you feel. And I just hope you’ll take a step back from that ledge and re-evaluate how miserable life would be without your existence. Someone out there would REALLY miss you.
I worked on my vision board this week.
My vision board buddy and I got together last weekend and worked on our vision boards. What’s a vision board? Well, it’s pretty much just a big poster board where we write our life goals and glue on inspirational images from magazines/the internet. One of my six goals is lacking, but I’ll probably do more to it this weekend. I’m hoping that seeing my goals stare glaringly back at me every morning will help me spring into action!
I bought another ebook this week!
Click on images for a link to Goodreads! I have a friend who recommends me tons of books that she reads — because she reads so, so fast! — and this, ladies & gentleman, is one of them. She finished this last week, I think, and told me I need to read it! Since I’ve never read anything by Cora Carmack, though she is a popular author whose name I see often, I didn’t have any evidence that this would be a worthy read, other than my friend’s word. Even though she did rate it 3.5/5 stars, she thinks I will very much enjoy it the same way that she did. Okay, so far, she’s hit the nail on the head — I’m very much enjoying this book so far, and I hope that this small infatuation continues. Roar is a book about violent storms and how they have human-like qualities — as in, they’re like monsters who try to destroy kingdoms — but humans obtain the affinity to control them by stealing their stormhearts. Right, it’s kind of confusing and weird at first (totally my first thoughts going into this) but it’s getting better, and it’s definitely unique.
DEAR READER: Have you read anything by Cora Carmack?
And here’s what I read this week…
Click on images for a link to Goodreads! I finished When Dimple Met Rishi — ahhh! It was super cute, although I wanted to strangle Dimple a few times. Rishi was THE BEST. He literally did and said all the right things. Ultimately, I’ve rated it 4/5 stars, and there will be a review coming soon (most likely this week)! And like I’ve state previously, I’ve begun to read Roar, and I’m quite liking it. I’m currently about a 1/4 through it, and I anticipate that it shouldn’t take me too long to finish it…
DEAR READER: If you’ve read WDMR, did you also want to strangle Dimple just a little bit???
Music of the Week!
I listened to a lot of instrumental music this week, up until Thursday. On Thursday, when I heard the news, I just started listening to all my favorite Linkin Park songs. Does anyone else do that? Celebrate the life of a musician by singing loudly to all of your favorite songs? I’m so thankful for his music, so here’s a compiled list of some of my favorites.
Television and Movies~
First of all, GAME OF THRONES!!! I’ve been waiting so long for this episode, and the ENDING. I won’t spoil it for anyone — because I’m not cruel like that! — but if you want to discuss it in the comments below, feel free!!!
Moana is just an all-around good movie to watch, especially as you work on your vision board. Hei-hei is my favorite. And one of the best things about this is that The Rock voices Maui. You’re welcome.
I’d been wanting to see this since I saw the preview in theaters. Finally convinced Isaac to watch it with my one night. We got about 50 minutes in and I started getting really tired, so we restarted it about 48 hours later and finished it, but what. the. eff. The ending, although I called it, was pretty upsetting. Isaac and I literally just looked at each other blankly as the credits started to roll.
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DEAR READER: What plans do you have for the weekend?! Can you believe July is just about over?
Rosie was so delighted to sleep past 9am today. She’s also pretty stoked that her boyfriend just made breakfast — SCORE! All she really wants to do right now is read more of Roar, but she actually has to get ready to go to the gym — LEG DAY! — and then she has a baby shower to attend after that. She hopes to get a good chunk read while on the elliptical. And then the rest of the day shall be a lazy day, because she says so. Happy weekend, my friends!!!